Jul
04

The Ego Will Keep Re-creating Itself Until We Embrace Being Nothing On a Deep Level of Being

By
Share

When we come to the point in our spiritual evolution when we have realized that this person we thought we were, we’re not, and the life we thought was Life, wasn’t; basically everything we thought was real, isn’t, the ego will revolt big time.

When the ultimate let-go has been done, or imposed on us (by fierce grace) and we realize that we are in fact nothing, no thing, while at the same time everything, every thing, the minds former occupation looses it’s function; it is no longer needed to the same things as before.

It becomes more of a practical tool (not in the way you may have been taught to use it) as it is kind of great to know to be aware when being out in traffic and so on, but it’s no longer a tool for manipulation of ‘reality’, aka the delusion of us ‘creating our reality’ with all kinds of manipulative means and techniques.

When we realize Truth, there is no longer anything to hold on to, and the last thing that is surrendered is the self, the false self. (The person you imagine yourself to be).

This is very uncomfortable for the ego and in the beginning of our awakening it will re-create itself (we will continue to ‘create’ a better version of ourselves) and it will always find something to identify with, good or ‘bad’, it doesn’t’ matter.

As long as there’s an identification to something or to be someone or something, there’s always going to be a sense of separation. 

Only when there is a surrender to nothingness, to emptiness, and when there’s no grasping or striving going on anymore, can the real life awaken to itself, but it’s not you who awakens to anything, in fact, you are dying, and when ‘you’ are no longer – that’s when life really begins, as you. (You are an expression of life itself).

After a while you start to see what’s happening, you begin to recognize the process of ego death and get an understanding of what’s going on, you start to get insights in your own evolution and then the day comes when you finally embrace the not knowing-ness, and the not being-ness of anything, and when that final realization comes when you no longer feel the need to re-create anything (because you have realized the spiritual immaturity in that) that’s when the ego begins to look at the past for an old identification.

If it can’t ‘improve itself’ anymore (when the relinquishment of personal development and new age stuff happens), it will find an old identification from the past to cling to.

You may be hooked by the cunning ego and it’s deceiving ways into believing that there’s something there to still gain so you may re-identify with an old self again, and this could be an old self from years and years ago – the ego will find a version of you who you thought you were at some point in your life that brought you great grief and great pleasure as well and hook you to it emotionally and in how you behave.

Be very aware of this: the ego will do anything from preventing itself from dying and if it can’t re-create itself (by becoming a better version of yourself by all kinds of self improvement concepts) it will do whatever it can to find an old identification and cling to it.

Until you realize what’s happening.

Until you realize that a mask from the past has been picked up again and put on.

Until you realize that the truth of who you are means having no mask. At all.

Until you realize that this person, or this behavior you’re now once again engaging in, is not an accurate manifestation of who and what you know yourself to be in Truth.

Until you realize this ego game, you will be stuck in suffering.

You will keep imposing (or trying to by vision-boards and affirmations etc) something on life as if it was missing and all this time you’re blind to see that Life already is, and it will not (ever!) succumb to your petty wishes.

You may go back to doing drugs or drinking for a while, or you may become someone you once were that you didn’t particularly like. (Being gossipy, bossy, or jealous, or you may go back to an ex who treated you like crap for example deluding yourself to believe that it will be different this time, or whatever).

The more emotionally the ego can hook you (sometimes through an idealized image of how things were once, but in reality wasn’t for example, or by making you believe it’s good old fun and that you can handle it now), the deeply it can take hold on to you.

Realize this:

Nothing needs to be added to life. (And really can’t, that’s an illusion – nothing is missing).

Everything has to be stripped off. (Life does that to you by itself and the more you can surrender to it, the easier the journey).

The ego can’t bare to be nothing, can’t bare to not know, and when the willingness arises in us to let go of the need to know, the need to see and control what’s ahead (there is nothing ahead, all there is is an infinite Now), and as long as we believe in our thoughts about having to know, the longer we will suffer.

The longer we cling to the old self, the false self, an old identification, or by any other (new) identification, there will be both pleasure (pleasure is short-lived and of the mind) and pain, but very little real deep joy.

When we can fully embrace that we really don’t know anything about anything, that we are nothing, while knowing that we are all things and everything – not until we fully embrace that and let go of all attempts to control or manipulate, or create, or change anything, but are fully accepting this moment to be our whole life, that’s when we realize that we are indeed already free.

 

Ask me a question about your own spiritual journey: become a member of mariaerving.com


Work with life, not against it. 

I’ll show you how.

I’ll help you get released from the constrains of the ego and connected with your flow in your personal, professional and spiritual life.

Sessions with me are different, I don't work by the hour.

As long as the flow is there, we'll talk: »Let's Get Started 

More here» 

Share

Comments

  1. Brenda Bentley says:

    It’s pretty complicated and simple. What I always get to is ‘so what’s the point?’ – and I realize this is an ego statement. The point is the point IS. As an expression of life itself, I can play this game, live my life, feel everything I need to – knowing it is just that a game. We cannot be in this existence without an ego, as we are the expression of life and the expression happens through ego. It’s just knowing that is true is the trick and being detached from the outcome.

    But if our purpose in our expression of this life through our ego is to remember who we are, once we remember – what is the point? EASH. I could keep this going all day………

  2. Maria Erving says:

    Hi Brenda,

    Thanks for commenting and sharing your views.

    I don’t agree with you however; we don’t need an ego, because the ego is just a fabrication of our mind, it’s not real. (It’s a bundle of thoughts and beliefs).

    Life lives itself as us, through Spirit I would say if I need to use a word, but we are definitely not the ego and life is absolutely not expressing itself through any such thing. (It may only appear so when we go against the natural flow of life; that’s when we suffer).

    Life is Truth itself and cannot be anything than it is: Truth. Nothing more and nothing less.

    The purpose of life is this moment, what’s happening now is the purpose.

    There is really nothing to look for or search, life is constantly revealing and unfolding it to itself.

    It’s all a beautiful, absolutely beautiful “game” or “play” (as you put it), and the “what’s the point”-thing you’re going through at the moment is indeed your ego trying to prevent you from seeing and experiencing your true nature, which is Spirit. (Not ego).

    When we realize who and what we really are it means the death of the ego, and when thinking about it, who wouldn’t resist dying? The ego will do anything to keep itself alive and well in your mind.

    It’s all a part of the journey and the more you can relax into your own being and look at the egos attempts with amusement almost (not judging it or anything like that, but to just observe it with lightness), the easier it will dissolve – because it’s not there in the first place, it’s all a trick of your mind that keeps you in bondage.

    This is however a very normal reaction and a part of the path, the more aligned we become so to speak, the more the ego will resist (until it’s no more), and one of the tricks of the mind is that it will say things like “what’s the point” for this simple reason: it’s loosing it’s occupation, the old function is no longer necessary (as in always having the need to knowing and controlling everything) and therefor it will become confused and resistant (and feelings of victim-hood surface) to the nothing-ness and the not being-ness. (Because it means the death of it).

    When you inquire into this (in a very deep and sincere way), when you start to ask yourself who all this is happening to (who is saying theses things to whom?), you will do some amazing discoveries.

    No one can give those answers to you, if someone gave them you you would only know them conceptually, but realization is not on the intellectual level of understanding, it’s a direct experience of Truth.

    We are beyond though, beyond mind.

    There is no intellectual approach available to this, it’s an inner journey and all the ego is is a false idea of who we (humanity at large) think we are, and by looking within with absolute honesty and curiosity (without grasping for anything) it will become very clear eventually. (The truth of who we are).

    We can’t think ourselves free, but instead let freedom come alive/awake in us by surrendering to the natural impulses of life, as it already know how to take care of itself. It certainly doesn’t need a imagined self to impose anything on it.

    This will become obvious when true reality touches itself within you.

    A post I wrote a while ago came to mind just now, thought you might like this:

    http://mariaerving.com/dont-approach-your-inner-self-intellectually/

    Stay in touch and let me know how things unfold for you?

    All the best,

    Maria

  3. Brenda Bentley says:

    Thanks Maria.

  4. Maria Erving says:

    You’re so very welcome Brenda! 🙂

  5. […] avoid, they try to fix, make better, they try to let go, or keep old stories that feels familiar (ego take on old identification that feels familiar) and do literally everything it can to prevent you from realizing the true […]

  6. […] “… When we realize Truth, there is no longer anything to hold on to, and the last thing that is surrendered is the self, the false self. (The person you imagine yourself to be). This is very uncomfortable for the ego and in the beginning of our awakening it will re-create itself (we will continue to ‘create’ a better version of ourselves) and it will always find something to identify with, good or ‘bad’, it doesn’t’ matter….” : http://mariaerving.com/the-ego-will-keep-re-creating-itself-until-we-realize-who-we-are/ […]

  7. Tommi says:

    Hello,

    If the ego is totally non-existent then who is doing the reading of these texts?

  8. Maria Erving says:

    That’s the question Tommi! 🙂

    You have to ask that of yourself and then you will know.

    Here’s a couple of my older articles that I think you might find helpful:

    http://mariaerving.com/who-am-i/

    http://mariaerving.com/self-awareness-questions/

    It’s the questioning-part that is the most important part so take what resonates, and push yourself a little if resistance comes up; be relentless in your commitment to know.

    What happens in the process of awakening is a shift in identity so the ego might still be there but it’s in the background of everything and it doesn’t make any noise anymore.

    It’s when we are sincere in our desire to know the Truth about who we are that the shift begins to happen and that can only come about by going within and really investigating who this “I” is who is doing all this spiritual stuff (like reading this article for example).

    Another thing that is great to do is to write about your experiences and thoughts in a journal.

    That way things gets clearer and it’s interesting to go back and see later as well and really see how you have grown and developed spiritually.

    Here’s an article that I think you might like and find helpful:

    http://mariaerving.com/writing-a-journal/

  9. […] The Ego Will Keep Re-creating Itself Until We Embrace Being Nothing On a Deep Level of Being […]

  10. […] The Ego Will Keep Re-creating Itself Until We Embrace Being Nothing On a Deep Level of Being […]

Leave a comment:

 

My intent is to have people think independently, feel deeply and honestly, and move into a higher knowing of themselves.