There is no personal GodBy
Spiritual awakening will, as I have written numerous of times before, remove every belief and concept we have, and it will eventually with spiritual maturity also lead to awakening from the concept of God.
(I have never been religious, but we all have some kind of beliefs about God).
I went through this transition a couple of years ago or so when I broke up with God so to speak and God also ‘disappeared’ completely with the spiritual awakening experience I had and I stopped praying etc because it felt ridiculous (or silly) to be talking to myself. (When I realized that I am Life and there is no God).
It was both a huge liberation to discover that I am everything and nothing at the same time but also disturbing (for the ego) to comprehend that there was no God.
Then things went back a bit on the God-thing, and even though it was in a completely different way than before, I started to pray again and talk with God, knowing that I was basically talking with myself, but it was nice to have the communication going on once again with God and it felt okay so I fell back into that.
Now I have once again gone through some very intense experiences and have realized once again that there is no God, that it doesn’t exist and never has.
What a relief!
“God” is a weight we carry around through life without even knowing it until the realization of it only being a belief (thought) is deep enough.
We go back and forth with strongly held beliefs for a while even if we know that beliefs are not true (none of them), it’s all a part of the transitional process. (From one level of consciousness to another).
So you will probably never again find me quoting from the Bible or the Gita or any other scriptures! nor will I continue using the word “God”, it just doesn’t feel relevant anymore.
My whole perspective on life and myself has once again completely changed, it’s amazing to me how this life does its thing.
It was almost an overnight transformation to let go of concepts of a personal God; one day he’s there and the next he’s not, almost like the belief most of us have had regarding Santa Claus.
Up until one day we believe in Santa and then the next day we don’t.
This time around there’s no grief involved in the process (of losing God and not have him to talk with anymore like I used to. When I went through this a few years ago there was sadness involved, but not this time), only great liberation, joy, freedom, and an even deeper sense of peace than before.
Just like every other concept and spiritual idea I once believed in has fallen away with the awakening process now also God has fallen away and it feels great.
There is no God, there is no ‘will of God’ and there’s no one that hears our prayers because we are talking to ourselves.
This might sound negative and gloomy but it really isn’t.
Life is about realizations and discovery and exploration, deeper and deeper into that which is beyond any beliefs we hold, and it’s amazing!
It can be startling and unpleasant at times, absolutely, but the key is really to question everything, to always stay true, to not tiptoe around our beliefs (and not trying to change them for better ones, that’s just pure nonsense!) but instead challenge them, question them, do some serious inquiry into truth.
To live authentically and honestly with ourselves! – Life is an adventure and we can never know where it takes us other than the deeper we go spiritually the more awe and wonder there is.
When we dare to face our doubts, fears and disbeliefs, and when we allow ourselves to have our spiritual temper tantrums and rantings and to be totally open to the explorational journey of life (by introspection), that’s when we open up for revelations and discoveries of who we really are.
With that comes a whole new appreciation for life.
The journey can at times be uncomfortable but the more courageous we are the more we see that it all ultimately leads to liberation and freedom.
I have never been a person that would delude myself into thinking I have “arrived” or come to some kind of conclusion about life – I will never lie to myself, and I think that my radical honesty with myself and my own processes is what has lead me to this, because I’m not willing to fool myself in any way.
There is a mystery to life yes, an ‘order’ to things, and all things are intertwined and the source is not possible to trace, but life is also always here and now and how we chose to respond to it is also always right now and this becomes very clear with maturity.
Radical honesty with ourselves will lead to the collapse of all beliefs and concepts we hold.
Don’t get stuck in any concepts at all; question everything you take to be true and real and realize that none of it is ultimately true; and also it’s not healthy to push away any doubts, but instead look at them fearlessly and be determined to see the truth.
The current of Truth is not going to let go of anyone who’s sincerely interested in knowing it.
Life always meets us (itself) on the level of consciousness we’re currently on, that’s why I have met angels and have had an encounter with Jesus and so on.
‘Something’ saved me when I was 15 years old, and to me at that time it manifested itself as an angel which is one of millions of ways life could have manifested itself. It just fitted my level of consciousness at that time in my life.
There has been miraculous healings too but now I don’t give the credit to a God, it’s like humans do that by default, and to me that’s kind of ignorant. (I see it as Life simply doing its thing, not a God doing anything).
We take the notion of God for granted, and yes, I agree, there are many unexplainable things in life, but the thing is that we just automatically assume they are by something we call “God”.
Have you ever looked more deeply into that belief?
And I have had direct personal experiences of knowing God and have felt his presence so on, but now it seems like a distant memory of a dream almost.
And there’s no drama about it at all.
Peace is absolutely present without any God, even more so now, my beliefs (in the existence of a God) has simply collapsed and I have realized there is not a personal God that intervenes with life or humans.
Sometimes life moves in a way that makes it seem that way (that a divine being has its finger in it), but sometimes also it doesn’t.
It’s just how life moves.
I have taken God out of the picture, and still life seems to move that way, with or without “him”.
When in the midst of living the beliefs out that there is a God that hears you, takes care of you, comforts you and protected you and has a plan for your life etc, of course we can’t see beyond that which we believe.
God did not create us – we created God.
And there is nothing wrong with any of that at all.
Life is a stream of endless transitions and processes and the unfolding of existence is very surprising and in no way can any of it be predicted.
I love that we can discover more and more and as long as we stay curious and open and if we question everything all the time, then Life will reveal itself to us more and more deeply and fully, and that’s the beauty of it – and it also makes life so precious.
Always, always stay true and courageously curious – it is what undoubtedly leads to transformation of mind.
Here are some of my old articles from when I let go of God the first time:
And here’s a couple of other (old too) articles that has to do with letting go of beliefs: