Answering The Call (Your Matrix Moment)
The moment of Truth.
Will you go with your heart, or will you stay with the comfortable and ‘safe’? (The ‘known’). Or will you say yes to the unknown, the true adventure of life?
I say Yes.
In every life there comes a time when we are asked (even forced if we have not listened before) by life itself to make a decision that will alter our life direction and change everything.
We can feel when things has come to an end and when we are asked to leave the old behind us and move on.
Since my belief in God was removed my life took a different flavor altogether.
It’s like that was the last barrier – the last belief that left me, and that liberated me in a way that I have never experienced before. (I didn’t realize it had been a barrier until I was on the other side of it. All belief systems are, no matter if they are positive or negative).
So many things has become clear to me, it’s like whatever hindrances I have felt in the past are now gone, but that doesn’t mean that there will never be any challenges again, because I’m sure there will as life is not limited to only pleasant experiences and joyful moments.
What I mean is that I can’t believe (or see any reality) in any beliefs anymore and I see very clearly how beliefs clutters the view of clear seeing.
We have to go though extremes (that’s my experience and not obligatory) in our spiritual unfolding and evolution and feel all the rawness of life and emotions and so forth in order to chose and chose again, to be true to what is true in our hearts.
What you come to know is that all life is what you are; that all you see, all your visions and all your gods and goddesses and what not; they are all aspects of your own self.
There is no relationship, yet there is as Life continuously speaks to itself.
Life is both destructive and productive, it is everything, and here’s the difference between the western view on God that has to do with relationship (“Big powerful God and little me”-mentality) while the eastern view is about identification with divinity. (Not as a personified deity but as in Brahman/Oneness).
Here in the west the ego is more developed and strong and when someone realizes their Oneness with all (or have a spiritual or religious experience and they have a glimpse of their true nature) the realization can more easily be hijacked by the ego and we have boasting, spiritualized ego’s running around thinking they are God. (Or “awakened beings”).
That’s not what Oneness is at all. It’s not an addition to who you are, it’s just plainly who you are, simply so.
In the eastern part of the world this realization is obvious. It’s not a wow-factor at all. They know (and don’t just believe) that Brahman is all there is.
It’s not personified and their deities are merely symbols for what is in everyone’s hearts already.
Wrath, hate, love, kindness – they all stem from what is in you. Not from a God somewhere outside of yourself.
They look into your eyes and their Namaste comes from the heart of true authentic seeing that we are One, and it’s not merely a shallow phrase as it is used by many westerners who want to sound spiritual and ‘evolved’.
We can all feel the difference if someone is phony or if it comes from a truthful place in someones heart.
Authenticity can only come when we are sincere with ourselves first and with every spiritual period of transformation and growth we are faced with extremes and it’s important (crucial) to not shun away from them.
It’s like the final test almost (like in a video game), when you have to meet and conquer the big monster before you can go on to the next level. (Or phase of your life where you have transcended the old).
Don’t let yourself be distracted from realizing Truth. You have to go with it and you have to stay true.
That’s the only ‘rule’ there is.
It was absolutely necessary for me to for a period call myself an atheist, and I needed to come to that point in my realization that made the tipping point possible, and how that could happen was purely and only because I am nothing but completely and utterly truthful with myself.
For me there is no other way to live and wherever life (consciousness, which is who and what I am) takes me, that’s where I go and my only interest has been (and is) the true nature of reality and my commitment to that is what has lead me to where I am today in my own evolutionary process.
I don’t like any labels at all, I feel that whatever someone is called or whatever something is called, it restricts them, but for a time I needed to use the word atheist to get through to people that I no longer believe in God.
And also for myself obviously, I needed to be able to say that truthfully even if it meant that I would probably lose a lot of readers.
As I wrote to someone who commented on my Facebook:
“The reason I chose to let people (or my readers) know that I’m an atheist was not to chose side or anything like that (even if it may sound like that, because truthfully, I’m not a fan of any labels), it was simply necessary to state that and make it clear because many people write me about God and praying etc and I’m not into those things anymore.
With time people will get used to ‘the new me’ and then forget all about the label “atheist”
(And thus stop writing me about praying to God etc).
So I’m not rallying for atheism or anything like that.
It is what my journey has lead to and that’s freeing, it’s not a loss as many seem to think. (As I wrote in my article where I explained that I don’t need to be saved)”.
So that’s where I am. I don’t believe in God, but I also don’t need to label myself as anything particular.
I don’t believe in anything, all I have is experience and that is all I ‘need’.
There is no need for faith or trust in anything but myself and other human beings.
To trust life is also not something I would say. What is there to trust? What is there to believe in? Nothing. Life is all there is, and it includes everything.
Do you trust that the tree outside of your window will grow branches? Do you trust that your heart will still beat tomorrow? It may or it may not.
We can trust the process of life, but it may go in whatever direction, we can never know, so that leaves us with trusting ourselves.
And as we are life we could say that we trust life, but not as something separate from us so to say that has no meaning.
This is not a gloomy thing to realize; it’s a liberating thing to realize, it takes away the ego’s desire to control and trying to direct events to go in its favor while going against nature.
That hurts if anything. Going with nature is peaceful.
Life is a happening and it can be amazing and it can also have challenging times.
It’s totally impersonal.
I’m sure you can relate to the fact that in life, as mysterious as it is, there seem to be a hidden order to things and when we look back we can see that not much happened in the way we intended och thought it would happen, and we can also see that things had to somehow happen the way they did.
Life is the totality of everything and who knows why it moves the way it does.
It’s a mystery 🙂
And when we open up to that (relinquishing the need to control events) life can surprise us and show us something else, something that doesn’t come from a place of desire, but from life itself.
Then life can open up a path that we didn’t see before – only this time we have no knowing of where it will lead (we never did in the first place), all we know is that it feels like the most right and obvious thing to do, despite of feeling a bit scared. (Or nervous).
That fear can be there, there’s space around it, and it can be seen for what it is; your own inner monster that you are now called to meet and conquer.
You can chose to stay with the known (although life will eventually have its way anyway:), or you can take the step outside the known and into the unknown.
What will it be?
“This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes” –The Matrix
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