We Are Both Divine and Human
When you wake up you wake up to the Truth of who you are, and even though there’s only one Truth the degree to in which we live that varies, and a full-blown awakening is not something that usually happens overnight.
We can still at times get drawn back to the old self’s ways and behaviors and when that happens, don’t make a big deal out of it by indulging in blame and shame games as that’s exactly what the ego wants you to do.
Simply brush yourself off, forgive yourself and move on with your life.
Don’t be too hard on your own humanness because there are many phases one goes through and not everything is crystal-clear all at once even if the seeing through illusion was absolute.
After a realization comes integration and the embodiment of what has been realized and in this phase you can come to go back and do things you’ve left behind you because the more light there is, the more the ego resists.
So the risk is always there, but if you fall back in this phase simply get back up and learn from it.
Realize what happened; that you got sidetracked by the ego self and drawn back to where it’s familiar for it to be and simply get back on track with yourself again.
A realization or awakening in itself doesn’t make you complete (or the realization complete) and flawless, that’s my point.
Sometimes people are clear in one way and still in illusion in other ways and I see this even in some of the most influential spiritual teachers of today.
What my point is, is that none of us is a perfect Divine being even if that’s what the ego likes to believe it can become and even though that’s the aim for most spiritualised ego’s.
We are both human and Divine at the same time, and sometimes (all) human beings do stupid, or unconscious, ignorant things!
The awakened mind is the natural, unconditioned mind, but that doesn’t mean that there’s no person existing at the same time, an individual that has his or her own personality, preferences and ability to make choices or have opinions about things.
It may not have been your choice to wake up as Life can decide to wake up without your consent or your conscious choice to pursuit enlightenment or Truth, but it is your choice to maintain or groom your realization.
It is your choice, as a human being, to decide which way to go from every moment to the next.
You can go back to delusion (sometimes you’re unconsciously drawn back there for a moment) or you can choose to be (relentlessly) dedicated to know Truth in deeper and deeper ways, and it is a deepening that never ends.
Truth is absolute, but it’s not static.
It’s alive, breathing, moving, and the discovery of its depth is a never-ending process and the more we surrender and let go into it, the more enjoyable the journey becomes.
We have the choice in this moment to either follow our ego or go with the natural tendencies of our individual life experiences that resonates the most.
Only the Truth is good enough for me but I too sometimes stumble and fall and believe it or not; even your most precious spiritual teacher or Guru is not perfect either even if they may seem that way outwardly.
We are all human beings on this journey together, awake or not.
I can hear someone influential and supposedly awake teacher speak and the moment they begin to theorize about life as if it was the Truth I want to ask them “How do you know that..?”
Because Truth can’t be taught, it can’t be learned, it can’t be imposed on another, not even inspired on another person.
It can’t even be talked about!
Personally I’m not interested in beliefs and words and ideas that’s been thrown around in conceptual ways as they sometimes are by charismatic teachers but I can see how alluring it is for the ego to listen to those teachers because there’s always something there that the ego think they can figure out, as if it was an intellectual mind-game.
I’m not interested in second-hand information, I want the direct experience, and the realization of Truth is something that deepens and stabilizes in the unfolding of our spiritual journey and illusion is usually not seen through all at once.
It becomes clearer as we go and we become more and more refined in the process, that’s my own personal experience of it.
It’s not a final place in which you are immediately anchored and established.
It’s like this for most of us (if we are honest with ourselves).
The ego is a strong thought and it will come back for you in some way or another in the process of awakening and even after awakening, and especially (but not always) shortly after an opening or realization of some kind.
And this path can vary in so many other ways too;
Some people do a lot of inner work before awakening (as I did), while some has done none (when awakening strikes completely out of the blue without no preparation at all) and then the clearing out of delusion and illusion comes after the awakening experience and that’s when hell breaks loose in some people’s lives and a very turbulent time follows.
Continue reading part 2 here:
I’m leaving Competa tomorrow.
It has been wonderful to be here but now new adventures awaits!
Next I’ll go to Benajarafe and Torrox which is closer to the beach – Yey!
More coming soon – Stay tuned 🙂
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