We Are Both Divine and Human

When you wake up you wake up to the Truth of who you are, and even though there’s only one Truth the degree to in which we live that varies, and a full-blown awakening is not something that usually happens overnight.

We can still at times get drawn back to the old self’s ways and behaviors and when that happens, don’t make a big deal out of it by indulging in blame and shame games as that’s exactly what the ego wants you to do.

Simply brush yourself off, forgive yourself and move on with your life.

Don’t be too hard on your own humanness because there are many phases one goes through and not everything is crystal-clear all at once even if the seeing through illusion was absolute.

After a realization comes integration and the embodiment of what has been realized and in this phase you can come to go back and do things you’ve left behind you because the more light there is, the more the ego resists. 

So the risk is always there, but if you fall back in this phase simply get back up and learn from it. 

Realize what happened; that you got sidetracked by the ego self and drawn back to where it’s familiar for it to be and simply get back on track with yourself again.

A realization or awakening in itself doesn’t make you complete (or the realization complete) and flawless, that’s my point. 

Sometimes people are clear in one way and still in illusion in other ways and I see this even in some of the most influential spiritual teachers of today. 

What my point is, is that none of us is a perfect Divine being even if that’s what the ego likes to believe it can become and even though that’s the aim for most spiritualised ego’s. 

We are both human and Divine at the same time, and sometimes (all) human beings do stupid, or unconscious, ignorant things!

The awakened mind is the natural, unconditioned mind, but that doesn’t mean that there’s no person existing at the same time, an individual that has his or her own personality, preferences and ability to make choices or have opinions about things.

For example;

It may not have been your choice to wake up as Life can decide to wake up without your consent or your conscious choice to pursuit enlightenment or Truth, but it is your choice to maintain or groom your realization.

It is your choice, as a human being, to decide which way to go from every moment to the next. 

You can go back to delusion (sometimes you’re unconsciously drawn back there for a moment) or you can choose to be (relentlessly) dedicated to know Truth in deeper and deeper ways, and it is a deepening that never ends. 

Truth is absolute, but it’s not static.

It’s alive, breathing, moving, and the discovery of its depth is a never-ending process and the more we surrender and let go into it, the more enjoyable the journey becomes.

We have the choice in this moment to either follow our ego or go with the natural tendencies of our individual life experiences that resonates the most. 

Only the Truth is good enough for me but I too sometimes stumble and fall and believe it or not; even your most precious spiritual teacher or Guru is not perfect either even if they may seem that way outwardly. 

We are all human beings on this journey together, awake or not. 

I can hear someone influential and supposedly awake teacher speak and the moment they begin to theorize about life as if it was the Truth I want to ask them “How do you know that..?”

Because Truth can’t be taught, it can’t be learned, it can’t be imposed on another, not even inspired on another person.

It can’t even be talked about!

Personally I’m not interested in beliefs and words and ideas that’s been thrown around in conceptual ways as they sometimes are by charismatic teachers but I can see how alluring it is for the ego to listen to those teachers because there’s always something there that the ego think they can figure out, as if it was an intellectual mind-game.

I’m not interested in second-hand information, I want the direct experience, and the realization of Truth is something that deepens and stabilizes in the unfolding of our spiritual journey and illusion is usually not seen through all at once.

It becomes clearer as we go and we become more and more refined in the process, that’s my own personal experience of it.

It’s not a final place in which you are immediately anchored and established.

It’s like this for most of us (if we are honest with ourselves).

The ego is a strong thought and it will come back for you in some way or another in the process of awakening and even after awakening, and especially (but not always) shortly after an opening or realization of some kind.

And this path can vary in so many other ways too;

Some people do a lot of inner work before awakening (as I did), while some has done none (when awakening strikes completely out of the blue without no preparation at all) and then the clearing out of delusion and illusion comes after the awakening experience and that’s when hell breaks loose in some people’s lives and a very turbulent time follows. 

Continue reading part 2 here:

mariaerving.com/merrily-human-life-is-but-a-dream

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I’m leaving Competa tomorrow.

It has been wonderful to be here but now new adventures awaits!

Next I’ll go to Benajarafe and Torrox which is closer to the beach – Yey!

More coming soon – Stay tuned 🙂

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Comments

  1. W

    Hi Maria,

    I hope you will be able to shed a little light on what has been occurring within me lately. I’m staying open,curious and quiet because thats about all I really know to do. Over the past three weeks, I’ve been experiencing moments of complete nothingness and when the nothingness passes, I’m back in something/ this world so to speak. I remember you saying, “stay curious” in one of your posts and that helped me settle my chattering and nervous mind after experiencing (nothingness). I don’t know if this makes sense. Frankly, my identity feels as if it’s been broken into 100 pieces and I don’t know how to reassemble it. Not that I would want to necessarily but knowing that I couldn’t if I tried kind of sends a chill down my spine. I’ve also started to notice that the top of my head has started to tingle all the time now. It feels like someone touching/ gently stroking my hair. I had my husband check my head for tics or possible head lice because the tingling has become so noticeable within myself that I thought there had to be some kind of parasite. No tics, no head lice, nothing. I’ve never experienced anything like this before as this is all very new to me. But, the thing that’s causing me the most uncomfortableness is this intense feeling that I’m dragging around another person (really). Just the other day, I was outside helping my husband gather weeds and I became acutely aware that I didn’t want to be doing any of this pulling up of weeds, while simultaneously I felt myself being guided down to my knees (pulling up the weeds.) Every time this happens it feels like an other worldly sensation has a hold of me (the person/body) and all I know to do is tag along. Afterward, I was so happy that I followed through even though my mind was trying to revolt. Maria, the entire experience didn’t feel like it was me, I felt myself being navigated (I’m being extremely serious) like there was something in me that had taken over and (I/ the person) gladly stepped aside. Omg, I know this sounds insane but it’s true. I experienced an incredible internal shift that I haven’t really made sense of yet, however this resistance from my mind still continues to show up as does this feeling of me being navigated. Maria, there’s only me, only my person, my body, only one individual when I look in the mirror and yet I feel like I’m literally lugging around another human body with a mind of its own. When these unusual experiences started happening, I became very nervous as this all felt very unnatural to me, however I was determined to remain calm best I could and keep things quiet to those around me. Now, I’m not even sure about who I am anymore. It’s like I don’t know this body, this face, or this person that looks back at me in the mirror and at times I feel a tiny bit disoriented. Please understand, I’m not complaining, I’m just a little confused as to what is actually happening as it seems to elude my control. Any input would be much appreciated as I have no idea what is going on. Thanks so much.

  2. I think it would be a great idea to talk privately about what you’re experiencing W, since it’s a bit difficult to write the reply I want to convey to you.

    But if that’s not resonating with you at this time then I’ll try to write a little bit about this.

    Going through your comment:

    You wrote;

    “Frankly, my identity feels as if it’s been broken into 100 pieces and I don’t know how to reassemble it.

    Not that I would want to necessarily but knowing that I couldn’t if I tried kind of sends a chill down my spine.”

    Yes, you’re right, it’s nothing to try to get together again – and yes, you really can’t even if you tried.

    The ego and false self can try and succeed in recreating itself many times but there comes a point in the awakening process when that is no longer possible and that’s what the ‘chills down your spine’ notion is about;

    Your ego is scared shitless over the realization that it won’t be able to build itself up again.

    Now, this doesn’t mean that it won’t succeed ever again because it can, but you’re definitely on the brink of something when fear comes up like this.

    I can say this because I know you a little bit and we have talked before, so I wouldn’t simply say this to anyone that is experiencing these things because each individual has a different path and ‘progress’.

    That’s why I feel a session would be best in this moment in your life, so if it resonates then let me know and we’ll set up a time.

    Moving on;

    You wrote;

    “I’ve also started to notice that the top of my head has started to tingle all the time now. It feels like someone touching/ gently stroking my hair.”

    Yes, that’s probably energy openings as the top of your head is the crown chakra and lots of stuff can be felt in that area when you begin to open up more and more.

    Tingling etc are very common, and those can be felt also after had received healing for example, sometimes on the top of the head and also in hands, heart area etc.

    So it’s a good thing, nothing to be alarmed about (in case you were).

    You wrote:

    “..the thing that’s causing me the most uncomfortableness is this intense feeling that I’m dragging around another person (really).

    Just the other day, I was outside helping my husband gather weeds and I became acutely aware that I didn’t want to be doing any of this pulling up of weeds, while simultaneously I felt myself being guided down to my knees (pulling up the weeds.)

    Every time this happens it feels like an other worldly sensation has a hold of me (the person/body) and all I know to do is tag along.

    Afterward, I was so happy that I followed through even though my mind was trying to revolt.

    Maria, the entire experience didn’t feel like it was me, I felt myself being navigated (I’m being extremely serious) like there was something in me that had taken over and (I/ the person) gladly stepped aside.”

    There’s a releasing process taking place I believe and sometimes this can be very (very) intense as it seems to be for you, and lots of resistance too.

    That you felt happy by ‘stepping aside’ is a good sign that you’re following through on your inner promptings, but I still would like to talk with you privately.

    I think that would be the best thing to do right now.

    There’s too much here that needs to be talked about in a real conversation, so if that resonates with you let me know.

  3. Ganesh

    Hi Maria,
    After doing a lot of inner work & mind purification through meditation still the Grace is required? I mean… really the wisdom should pass on physically from master’s heart to disciple’s heart ?

    If anyone want to continue his daily mundane work ( Job, family responsibility etc.) & still pursuing the path rigorously ( Ready to do anything) what are the chances of enlightenment in this life?

    Thanks & regards,
    Ganesh

  4. The person who begins the inner work and continues the spiritual work, the whatever work there is, is not the same individual who ends up awakened.

    It’s really a suicide process (spiritual death and rebirth) and Life doing all the processes one goes through to Itself.

    This is seen clearly once you’re ‘on the other side’ so to speak.

    In that regard you could say it’s all grace, yet it’s not since you, as you are at this point still identifying yourself with ego, are still the one thinking ‘you’ are doing all this work (meditation, purification etc).

    It’s all consciousness but consciousness identifying with the *thought* (beliefs) about who you think you are (at this point in your life).

    If you’re all in for Truth then you will absolutely rigorously also continue the work that is laid up in front of you; meaning, doing whatever it is that you’re indicated to “do” and also asked to let go of despite of what the ego wants to hold on to, which are always beliefs and theories/ideas etc.

    Sometimes this creates great havoc and meltdowns in ones life, yet still you find yourself doing all the things you do, don’t you.

    It’s all Life/Truth doing it and you just *think* there’s a ‘you’ doing it so no need to worry about not “getting enlightened”.

    It’s not you who ends up enlightened anyway.

    And all the “masters” talk; that’s pure nonsense. Enlightenment has nothing to do with any kind of love and light “heart” stuff.

    No Gurus or masters needed for this process to go its course.

    You may need support and someone to light the path up for you through showing you things that helps you see and understand your own process clearer but no one can “pass” enlightenment or wisdom to another.

    You only need to follow your own inner guidance and trust yourself and not give away your power to other human beings by putting them up on pedestals.

    The journey and process of spiritual awakening requires radical honesty with yourself and the willingness to throw everything known out the window (“masters” and all, and I would say especially them).

    The less worry there is about this whole thing the better off you are.

    You really don’t have to worry about anything at all but instead surrender to the process and let It take you wherever you need to go.

    Throw yourself into the fire of Truth and let it do its work in you because the whole process essentially boils down to one thing and that is SURRENDER.

    I think you might like this article:

    http://mariaerving.com/get-enlightened-today

    And these as well:

    http://mariaerving.com/leave-yourself-alone

    http://mariaerving.com/the-beauty-and-the-peace-let-grace-transform-you

    Hope you enjoy the read and find them helpful.

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