How Do I Get My Enlightenment Back? (Ask Maria)
How Do I Get My Awakening Back?
“.. losing the enlightened perspective I had… to have it all vanish is devastating.
I was transformed, I was a completely new and better me and then reverted back to the old me in a matter of weeks.
I wish there were resources or info of people who have had some shift then shifted back.”
There are resources available right here on my website and I have gathered some of my articles for you below that can be helpful not only to you but to others as well that has had a glimpse into Truth, and who now wonder how they can get it back, or who feel that they are flowing back and forth in “having it and losing it”.
I understand that you want your enlightened perspective back, that’s very common after having a glimpse into Reality.
This is actually one of the most common questions people have; “how do I get it back?” and my answer is “you won’t”, because enlightenment (or awakening) is not for the ‘you’ that you take yourself to be.
It’s not ‘you’ who awakens but Truth that wakes up to itself.
The one who had the glimpse (and you might have a few more of those) is not the one who ‘ends up’ enlightened, but the one (the person you take yourself to be) is the ‘seeker’ in the beginning, the one who wants to have what it just had a glimpse of, but it can never have it (live it).
Here’s a few articles that I think can be helpful to you (or at least point you to a deeper understanding of what you might be going through depending on where you are in your individual process):
“Ask Maria” Question:
“How Do I Avoid Being Swept Away By The Excitement Of The Mind?
How would I go about squelching ego (rampant escalation) right after my mind frees itself from learned knowledge and taps into “universal knowledge”?
How do I avoid being swept up with excitement to the point of polluting the here and now (that sense of oneness) with various “delusions” of fear, anxiety, and false pride?”
“Ask Maria” Question:
“Is Spiritual Surrender a Gradual Process or a One-Time Event?
I have been living in two worlds for 2,5 years now. It means half of the time I have felt great peace, happiness and joy and other half been mostly anxious or depressed.”
You can find other similar articles as well below the articles under “related posts”, but these are some of my articles that came to mind right now and that can help you start going in the direction of the answers that you’re seeking with your question.
Some of the articles are old and from when I was, ..ahem, .. should I say ‘slightly annoyed’ with some people’s immaturity, not only people who think they have awakened just because they had a mystical experience or a glimpse into the true nature of life and themselves but also with some spiritual teachers who actually think they can sell enlightenment and then the fools who buy into that.
It’s all an ego game; no one can ‘give you enlightenment’ or ‘make you awakened’.
But anyways, ..
Even though some of the articles are old they are still great pointers because this happens all the time with people; a person has a spiritual or mystical experience, a glimpse into Reality, a huge insight or whatever and then the ego thinks it is enlightened or will get enlightened so a frantic search to “get it back” begins.
Some things in these articles might offend your ego and make it pout, become all grumpy and offended, but I don’t really care about that since I’m not here to make your ego feel good but to help point you towards who you really are and then you do the discovery yourself.
I hope you can appreciate that.
The truth is that the realization will at some point hit you (or the ego) that it can’t survive the awakening process; that it can’t get anything from it.
But until this happens there will be a lot of spiritualised ego’s walking around, proudly flashing their badge of enlightenment for others to see (that they got from thinking a spiritual experience equals enlightenment), or wounded ego’s who are desperately trying to “get their enlightenment back” by all kinds of means.
(Three step programs to enlightenment and retreats where you are sold the lie that you can get enlightened in a weekend etc. Things like that).
But as I said, the time will come when the ego realizes it has no future, that there’s absolutely nothing in it for the ego – the ego doesn’t “get enlightenment” – it just thinks it can in the beginning and for a while until spiritual maturity happens.
Usually one of two things happens when people ask me this question (“how do I get my awakening back”):
The person asking me the question “how do I get my enlightenment back” doesn’t like my reply and I never hear from then again, or they are open and receptive to my suggestions and most importantly, they are teachable.
This is a must for all of us on the journey through life, awakened or not; to be teachable.
Even teachers has to remain “students” in life because there is always more to discover and realize.
I know you’ll find the resources I have just shared with you helpful so go through them one by one and feel very welcome to ask more about this subject or any other related topics about spiritual awakening at any point in your spiritual unfoldment:
And of course you can also share your thoughts and further questions in the comments below!
I love hearing from you.