I have had an alone-day today, and got this urge to write a post about the fact that most people are so afraid of being alone, afraid of silence and peace, always busy doing and going here and there.

I love my “Maria-days” (even those times when ego is battling with me) – they give me so much – I don’t even know what words to describe the feelings that comes out of times alone.

It’s so good for us to have days and just ‘be’.

That means having days off where we don’t ‘do’ anything else but soul-nourishing things like reading, walking in nature, praying, meditating, communicating with God, letting go of attachments to all our desires and let them just be for a while. Let the goals and aspirations germinate a while without any conscious doingness.

These days are sometimes forced upon us, when we have been trying and striving and struggling and what not. We all know the energy vibe I’m talking about, don’t we?

We feel discouraged and we just want to cry, but many times people just keep going with even more egoic force to make things happen for them, rather than letting life take care of biz for a while.

Many times, instead of getting still and seeking peace, people tend to distract themselves (or from themselves) with surfing the net, watching TV or drinking and so on.”Stuff” – everything but choosing stillness.

A song came to my mind, by Alanis Morisette, “All I really want”, where she sings:

“Why are you so petrified of silence

Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you’re gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man”

That’s what we all want, and when our spirit is asking us to go within, we should listen.

Yes, we will encounter days that are completely and utter uninspired and we feel low on energy, unproductive and sometimes plain sad – that is something to embrace! It means we are growing!

The more we keep distracting ourselves from ourselves, the more and harder these days hits us in the future, until we have done some inner work and become more from it.

Better days comes if we embrace the not so desirable ones first. It’s our spirit that wants us to grow and our ego that doesn’t want us to grow that causes the tension, but the second we surrender to peace, we have it.

Here’s a quote by Peace Pilgrim that I like:

“During the spiritual growing up period the inner conflict can be more or less stormy… The self-centered nature is a very formidable enemy and it struggles fiercely to retain its identity. It defends itself in a cunning manner and should not be regarded lightly. It knows the weakest spots of your armor and attempts a confrontation when one is least aware. During these periods of attack, maintain a humble stature and be intimate with none, but the guiding whisper of your higher self”

It’s important to have some alone-time, it has tremendous value and will bring peace to your life again. Pay attention to your soul, turn off all distraction and just BE with yourself today.