Spiritual Awakening and Feeling Lost
“… I feel that I have recently become awake or more aware. My truths have shifted tremendously. I’m feeling completely lost and almost insane due to my reality shift. I feel my current path is not mine but a product of my surroundings and sleeping self. I was a completely close minded person. I have stop caring about material things and now only yearn to know truth. I have a family but feel the need to escape. I’m lost…”
I’ve got this question from one of my readers, and I want to start out by saying that this is so very typical, and believe it or not, it’s actually “normal” when in the spiritual awakening process.
The spiritual awakening process will remove everything that is not in alignment with Truth and in the process our interests and passions change, and they change big time. (Not always, but usually).
The world as we know it is about to transform and it will change whether we like the transformational process or not.
What to do?
What to do when life becomes totally flattened out and even the interest for family and friends vanishes?
What to do when everything shifts and suddenly life is very different, our perspective is different and there’s no vitality or oomph left?
The mind tries to desperately understand what’s going on, but it never will, thus the feeling of almost going insane. The mind tries to figure out an escape-plan, a way out, but it just can’t.
It can’t escape itself.
So what to do?
The answer is: Surrender.
Give yourself over to the process completely.
You know the intuitive knowing that there’s another way of Life waiting for you..? That there’s something else? Trust it.
The real You is in a process of coming alive again, and with that the true expression of who you really are is coming forth. It’s good news! (Bad news for the ego though, as it means the death of it).
Spiritual awakening is not a one-time-event and then we’re suddenly enlightened, oh, no, .. nope. It’s the beginning actually, not an “arrival”.
There’s stuff to be relinquished, things and even people to let go of, we are being stripped off of all that we have held as truths and only that which is true in reality will remain.
That includes all our previously held beliefs and ideas of how life is. The mind gets emptied of all concepts, that you can count on.
It doesn’t mean that you will loose your family, that’s not what I mean, but there will be an inner re-alignment that will happen and when this happen things will be felt very chaotic and disorienting.
Time alone is needed.
You can ask that of your family, even a 30-minute meditation everyday where you can be alone and simply be will be beneficial, not only for you, but for your family as well. No need to go off to live in a cave, although that is sometimes what we would prefer; believe me I know this so well:-)
If you’re inclined towards prayer, that would be great to turn to as well.
Here’s a prayer that you might resonate with:
“God, remove everything that is not of you. I prefer that you just rip it off rather than going it the slow way; just rip it off like a band-aid, whatever it is, I’m ready! And if I’m not ready on some level unbeknown to me; then make me ready! I want ONLY that which is real and true, no matter what”
And then you can say things like (and mean it!) “Open doors that only you can open and close doors that are not for my highest good”, and also “God, replace me with you”.
See what happens when you do this.
You need to be sincere, obviously, and totally surrendered to whatever comes up.
Life is about to change so buckle up!
Above all, stay true to yourself, allow yourself to go in a whole new direction and be ready to let go of the life that you once imagined you had or wanted, it may turn out to be totally different than you could ever had imagined.
Just let yourself be transformed, that’s what can be done basically, because this is Life/God/Consciousness doing its thing and it will not let you go. It’s Its promise.
It’s like a totally mysterious adventure, once we let go and let life take over and live us.
Challenges will appear, sure, but always remember the prayer and know that you have been heard.
God is speaking to itself, it is Its desire to Life and express itself as You. (Not the ‘you’ that you imagine yourself to be).
Who knows where this will take us! No one knows, and that’s where our freedom lies, in the not-knowingness and the willingness to be totally naked and empty before God (so to speak, you get what I mean).
It’s in the surrender and the trust that you will find your way home again, back to yourself.
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