The Experience of Spiritual Awakening Does NOT Automatically Make You An “Awakened One”!
Something that I have noticed lately is how much the concept of spiritual awakening is getting thrown around, like a badge of honor or something, and believe me if that is how you think an awakening feels, like an accomplishment of some sort, you can be sure that it is your ego talking and luring you into thinking you have “awakened”.
An awakening is not the end of the journey, it’s actually the beginning.
An awakening is not about your hard times and struggles, it’s about realizing who you really are, your true nature.
And it usually comes (the realization) after years and years of seeking, learning, meditating and contemplating about life.
Sometimes people write me and share with me that “Oh, I have struggled so much, therefor I am awakened”.
No, you’re not. If you were, you wouldn’t go on sharing your drama with me in the next sentence, or looking for approval from me so that I acknowledge you as being awakened.
If what I write upsets you the slightest, you are not awakened.
If you were, you wouldn’t even care what I think, you would just smile. (You would, not that smug ego of yours who thinks you’re special because you have “awakened”)
The experience of a spiritual awakening doesn’t automatically make you an Enlightened One.
The journey that takes you to the point where you can live from your true nature 24/7 is a PROCESS, often times with a number of awakening-experiences – sometimes with many years between them – but they are all life-altering, you will never (ever!) be who you were before your experience of awakening, and there will be no doubt about if you had an awakening or not.
You will not wonder about it or think “Oh, that must have been an awakening, yeah, I think that was an awakening, lets call it that”, you will absolutely know something profound happened to you, it’s LIFE-ALTERING; YOU will have a huge inner transformation, but usually only a taste of your true nature and life as it really is at first.
We don’t usually stay there permanently after our first experience.
But we will clearly see the silliness of the World and take that with us in our hearts. We will go on, even if the experience itself fades, carrying the Truth with us, knowing it, but we will most probably not be able to live it fully just yet.
It may take you 20 more years before you really ‘get it’ on a deep level after your first taste of your True nature, and it’s not something you control, you can’t decide that you are going to awake.
That’s something life gives you, it’s not up to you. But of course, you can’t sit and wait for it either; you must really want to live authentically and you will want to seek it if you have had a taste of it (you cannot not want it again), there will be no slackness about it at all because you know you don’t belong to the world anymore.
So don’t go and change your name into something Indian-sounding just yet. Which is just another label you put on yourself; “I’m now an Enlightened One so I must change my name to Baba Krishna” or whatever.
Another thing is that being spiritually aware and awake are totally different things!
A lot of people can be aware (I am) but very few are actually awake (I’m not. I have had experiences of awakenings, yes, but I’m not awake yet, I might not even ever become awakened in this lifetime).
The ego can make itself spiritual, it can make you think you are enlightened, but as long as there is some kind of conflict left in your life,you’re just like the rest of us.
If you argue with yourself (and your thoughts), if you resent your situation, are angry with God, or get annoyed by your best friend or mom at times, you are NOT awake, so please stop fooling yourself.
If I were awakened, I would not be irritated by this concept being thrown around and write this post to voice my opinion about the ridiculousness of people thinking they have awakened when they may not even had an experience of a spiritual awakening in the first place!
I hear people think they have had a spiritual awakening, and they don’t actually have a clue.
It’s a very profound thing, and if all you can share with me is about your struggle, then you don’t know what an awakening is at all.
It’s a realization about who you really are, and it’s indescribable, beautiful and it will change your perception of who you think you are forever, but there will be some more work to do before you can become totally de-conditioned, and until then, your ego will try to make you think you have awakened so that you feel content with what is so that you don’t grow, or become more of who you really are.
The awakening is the beginning (not the end, or “arriving”), and you will see that everything you once thought was real, is not.
That’s when life really begins, but it can take years and years before you ‘get there’ so to speak, it’s not a one-time event that suddenly makes you Enlightened, and it’s not about your struggles, it’s not about your pain and bruised ego.
It’s about Self Realization.
And that’s a beautiful thing, and you will not be left wondering about it. You will absolutely Know.