Surrender To Life (+ mp3 with me)
Surrender to the Divine flow of Life – AUDIO
Oh my goodness! I just found an old audio that I’ve recorded some time ago in an attempt to share some of the experiences I had in the past.
It was interesting for me to listen to just now, because I realized how much I have grown, or evolved, since then.
I’m still referring to God as we are not One in the mp3 – and looking back, it’s amazing to see how it has all unfolded and how everything has changed for me personally.
(The person that is speaking in the mp3 is not who/what I am anymore as you probably already know if you have followed me for a while).
I thought about it, and decided to share the audio with you.
It may be inspirational and encouraging for someone that is in the midst of some spiritual challenges and emotional turmoil which can all be expected when in the process of spiritual awakening.
At times in my past there were times when I felt that no one could relate to what I was going through except for some mystics and sages of our history, and there wasn’t much support to get from them obviously! 🙂
I want to let you know that wherever you are in your own spiritual path, and whatever suffering you might go through; know that it is as it should and I know you might resent it when in the midst of it (believe me I know), but please take this to heart:
It is all a deconstructive plan – spiritual awakening will remove all that in your being and life that is not Truth, and the ego will protest, it will cry, it will curse and throw spiritual temper tantrums and fits, but know that it’s all a part of the process and the more you can allow it to happen, the more harmonious it will be experienced.
If you have asked God to use you, then this is what will happen; the person you think you are will have to go and it will.
The conditioned self will be transcended and it’s not about becoming someone better or about polishing your ego to boost it over and over again. That is the wheel of Samara. The endless wheel of shallow happiness and suffering.
There’s another life – the real one, that most people don’t even know about.
We are Life itself.
To surrender to God is to become One with him/her/it at last, but it is a process and my message for you now is to surrender to it, feel the Truth speaking right now in your heart as my words probably touch that which is true within you.
All really is well and as it’s suppose to be, it really, really is.
And even if you can’t even imagine it right now; one day you will feel such gratitude about the very same thing you now resent. All this deconstructing, demolition and hellish grinding of the ego is a blessing in disguise. A huge blessing.
Be with the process and do not shun away from it. Trust life and surrender to it.
Hope you enjoy the mp3 (It’s from 2010-2012 sometime and about 30 minutes long).
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Thankyou for sharing your personal experience…. it was great to listen to.
Iv been off the air for weeks…. yes, more growth!
I haven’t forgotten you! Just being perfected in the truth even more than ever… this particular time was extremely painful… had to release my daugther fully, completely… I get it though, it had to be.
A question Maria… you said in your recording, that you know you have always been destined for greatness? As you have progressed, has that been taken away, or become even more truth? The reason I ask, is that, even though I grew up in a godless enviroment, it always felt foreign to me, I knew, always did, that I was destined for greatness, I knew the life I was living, wasnt the life of mine, I knew I was living someone elses existence… it wasnt mine.
As I have grown, this has never left me, I guess why Im asking, is this the authentic me, or is there still some death to occur? You know what!…. this is what has always driven me….
I would love to hear your thoughts…. iv only just been released a few hours ago, so im not really certain of anything yet! What has been left and what has been gained! A major sacrifice in this process!
Lotsa Love Lyndal
Hi Lyndal,
Great to hear from you again!
Yes, sometimes we need some time off of everything and everyone to just be with stillness and Truth, I understand that.
To answer your question;
The thing is, that even though I have always known I’m here to do something out of the ordinary so to speak, I have always also known that it is not my own goal or something I have strived for. (Although I thought it was me doing/taking action towards whatever it would be).
I knew it was Life’s plan, and that was part of my reason why I chose Life when I put myself in rehab over ten years ago; I knew there was something I was here to do, and that it was time to get to it – but I didn’t know what it was, only that it was there in my cards if you will.
Now, after my awakening experiences (which has been both gradual and sudden) I’m in a completely different place altogether. (The person on the mp3 is part of my ‘old self’).
I don’t care about greatness or worldly success. It’s just not there anymore, my ambitions are totally changed, and I don’t see myself as being the one who does anything.
Life is living me, and however life decides to move, it moves.
To me ambition in it’s worldly meaning has become irrelevant. https://mariaerving.com/spiritual-ambition/
I do however still feel intuitively that I will be put on a larger platform but it will not be ‘me’ who stands there. Hope that makes sense.
Of course; I can’t know this, none of us know anything, and it’s not my aspirations at all. I would be just as happy living in a hut in the middle of nowhere for all I care 🙂
It would be just as great. There’s a drive within me to share what I share though, but if I would not be able to share, then that would be okay too.
To your question regarding your own journey; I suggest you ask yourself who is asking that question and ask deeply.
Self inquiry is always the way to go, and not through the mind and thinking.
Who is it that thinks there’s some more ‘death’ to do.. it’s interesting when we start to question whom all these questions come from.
And who is it that observes it all?
That’s where truth is to be found, or realized; look at the core; who’s there?
It’s by seeing what is not true that we encounter that which is.
Love,
Maria