Trust your path and the Unknown
Life will not take you this far and then suddenly abandon you!
I just got your email that the Ask Maria option is available for everyone now, so I would be grateful if you could help me with some advice.
I have been on the spiritual path for years, last two years intensively working on myself, on healing, going through awakening. Had the need to just focus on myself, be alone and heal from trauma, do spiritual work.
I’ve been on welfare the whole time, because I can’t imagine doing something that does not resonate with me, and that is a 9 to 5 job. I feel pain just by thinking about it.
And I had a difficult awakening process so it was not possible, and it’s still like that. I feel that my calling is something like what you do.
I have a court process about an apartment from my husband who died, and a few days ago my lawyer told me that I will have to move out. I’m in so much agonizing fear and pain since then, that I can’t describe.
It feels like I can’t take it anymore. And I know that there is some solution deep down, that it will be ok, but I can’t see it from fear and pain. I am tired of suffering. The worst thoughts are coming to my mind and I can’t stop it.
I feel completely alone and hopeless. I have intense fear about money in general.
Don’t know what to do, where to go. I just want to be happy and free, and do what I love and what I am here to do.
I read in some of your articles that you had a similar experience. Can you please help me with some advice, how to handle this? And how to approach this situation? How to shift this?
I know that I have created this somehow. And I would be grateful if you could share some advice about how did you start doing what you love.
And how to trust, how to ask for guidance. I don’t know what to do in this moment. Fear is overwhelming, and it’s hard for me to change focus, to see something positive.
Thank you in advance and thank you for your work, it is really helpful to me.”
Life is on your side, trust that.
Thank you for sharing from your life, I know the stress and agony you’re in the midst of, and I also know the way out of it, so let’s begin.
“I feel that my calling is something like what you do.”
Whatever it is that you want to do is something you have to grow into, so think about what exactly it is that you want.
What do you want?
Make a list of exactly what it is that you want and how you would love to have your life to look like, and be as specific as you can be.
Your purpose, or a bigger life, is something you grow into, you evolve into becoming that person having that kind of life, but first you have to have some kind of idea of what that would look like.
You have to become the person you want to be (and you can be that person Right Now, in your mind), and then from being That person, then you can help, lead, and guide others in whatever way it is that you feel called to do that.
All that is between you and That person is a shift in consciousness.
So what’s happening right now in your life is the training ground for what it is that you are growing (or awakening) into, which is the true you, the you that lives in an empowered state.
And that’s what you have been doing with all the inner work, so that’s great, it is all helping you evolve and awaken to the the real you, so you’re on the right path, doing the right things, so trust that!
The small self on the other hand is scared and worried, so the next step for you is to work on your concept of self, and to align with your true nature and self instead.
The ego is the one who is scared, fearful, worried, panicky, and all that, but that’s not who you are.
Here’s one of my old Teleclasses that came to mind that can be helpful to you:
“How To Detach From The False Self” (30 min.)
When you have written down what you want to do and you have some clarity on that, then the next step is to start moving in that direction.
If you want to do something similar to what I’m doing, then what would be the next obvious step for you to take, starting right now, today?
It can be a huge step, or it can be a small step, but it has to be some kind of step, so what would be the next obvious thing for you to do once you have some clarity around what it is that you want to do in terms of future work?
Here’s one of my older e-books that can be helpful to you (it’s free):
When I lived on welfare and was going through my awakening process I too was scared, and I also worked on myself pretty much 24/7, and fear was one of the things I had to do massive inner work on (and especially around money).
I lived and breathed my transformational/spiritual process, and at the same time I was also building on my dreams and calling, so if you want to do something similar to what I do, then what would be the next obvious step for you to take?
What seems obvious?
Do that, that’s really all you have to focus on (ever); The Next Obvious Step.
I started a blog for example, and then I built my website, I did all that simultaneously with all the other stuff I was in the midst of, such as being on welfare, applying for jobs I knew I didn’t even want, and so on.
So the most important thing is to get some kind of clarity on what it is that you actually want to do, and then simply do the next obvious thing that feels right, is interesting, or brings you joy, and so on.
That’s the secret to a life of freedom and fulfillment in a nutshell!
Begin now, with whatever you have, do what you can (with joy/passion) what you feel guided to do, and then the next step is always shown to you.
I now remember that I actually created the Clarity e-book at the same time when I was living on welfare and was going through my awakening process, so that’s a perfect example of what you can do even if you’re going through something challenging.
You can do something like that too, whatever it may be that you are passionate about or feel called to do.
It could be to start a YouTube channel or write a book, learn healing or start a blog or a Podcast, or whatever it may be that you would like to do and that would bring you joy.
So to recap:
1.) Get clarity on what it is that you want to do. It doesn’t have to be crystal-clear, but you do need to get some kind of clarity around your dreams and desires, and what it is that you feel called to do etc.
2.) Then think of the next three obvious things you can do to start moving in the direction of those dreams, or the calling that you have for your life, and then do it, start doing the things right away, one step at a time.
“I have a court process about an apartment from my husband who died, and a few days ago my lawyer told me that I will have to move out. I’m in so much agonizing fear and pain since then, that I can’t describe.
It feels like I can’t take it anymore. And I know that there is some solution deep down, that it will be ok, but I can’t see it from fear and pain. I am tired of suffering. The worst thoughts are coming to my mind and I can’t stop it.”
So Life is moving you to somewhere else because the time has come for that.
If it’s already decided for by Court and there is no way you can stay, then there is nothing more to do than to accept that and start looking for another place.
I once lost my home too, and I tried to hold on to it until it no longer was possible, but eventually the day came when I had to move out.
Here’s an article where I share my story about that:
“Remembering Last Christmas (Personal)” (It’s old, from my ‘previous’ life)
But the holding on to it was also part of the process!
I had to go through it the way I did, so it all unfolded and happened exactly as it was meant to happen, exactly as it was meant to, so that’s what I want to say to you too.
Whatever happens is meant to happen, so don’t be scared.
I’m speaking from my own experience so I’m not just telling you this to sooth you.
(And just because I became homeless doesn’t mean that you will have the same experiences that I had! We all have different paths and purposes in life that are perfectly designed and unique for us.)
I know what it’s like to live with the kind of fear you’re experiencing, and I also know that there was never anything to fear, because there is a Divine perfection to how everything unfolds.
Something will open up for you.
You might suddenly get a new job, or someone might offer you a place to live that you could never have expected, predicted, or even imagined, – Many things can happen that are just beyond incredible!
Here’s another one of my articles where I share about when I was given a hotel (!) all to myself when I was homeless, and where I ended up staying many times, a couple of whole summers even, which was just soo amazing, something I could never had imagined in a million years would happen:
I have been given free apartments too, I’ve even lived in a huge house/small mansion once where I had my own pool guy, gardeners, and a cleaning lady – all for free!
So trust your path, because if you’re on your True Path, which I have no doubt you are, then Life will always take care of you.
If you are meant to move, you will, and if you’re not, you won’t, so offer no resistance.
The small self can never see beyond the known, that’s why it’s so afraid and scared.
Surrender everything into the flow, into the hands of God, your higher self, or whatever you want to call it, and trust.
Here’s something that can help you with that:
“I have intense fear about money in general.”
I have had that too, so I know exactly how you feel.
In my case I had to lose all my money in order to realize that security and freedom does not come from money, it comes from within, and when you have it within you, it shows up on the outside too.
Money will start to flow when you feel secure and happy within yourself without it, when you no longer ‘need’ it in order to feel secure and safe.
When I lost my home I had 9 Euros to my name, that was all I had left, but that was exactly what I had to experience and go through in order to come to a place of true freedom.
I also did intense work on my money consciousness, I dissected and released every false belief I had about money, I did a lot of inner work around those kinds of things (and I can help you with that too.)
Life is what your state of consciousness is, so if you want a different life and reality, then releasing false beliefs and fears is part of the process.
The fear was so intense at times, but if you want freedom more than anything else, then you just have to do the inner work, simple as that, and having that kind of attitude is actually very empowering when you think about it.
Then there’s no ifs and buts about any of it; you will simply not let anything stop or hinder you from living the life that you’re meant to live, come hell or high fire.
So you have to mean business and be absolutely relentless about it.
Here’s a link to some of my articles that can help you with that:
And here’s a couple of articles that will help you as well:
I also had to learn to trust and to be totally okay with not knowing where I would live; there were many times I didn’t know where I would live from week to week when I didn’t have a home of my own.
But at that point I had already come to trust my path and done so much inner work already that I wasn’t scared or worried at all anymore.
Being homeless and living one week here, two months there, and then a few weeks there, never knowing where I would be or go next and so on, helped me overcome all the fears I had around money too, so you see how everything was perfectly designed for me to do just that!
Just like your life experiences are perfectly designed to whatever it is that you are meant to grow into and awaken from.
You have to trust.
I was at one point also offered an apartment where I could move and live for free (and make it into my home), it was a beautiful duplex, right by the beach, and everything about it was just amazing, but something felt off with it, I felt an internal “no”, so I turned it down, without even knowing where I would live the next week.
Then right after I had turned it down (and it was hard! But I trusted my internal No);
Out of the blue came an offer to stay in the most beautiful house where I had my own pool and a huge, beautiful garden, all very private and secluded, and I could stay there over the whole summer (and more later on)!
So I moved there and to this day it’s the best place I have ever lived in my entire life (and I have moved over 40 times) – I loved it so much! It was like paradise to me.
So I can tell you with absolute confidence that you can trust the flow of your life.
Everything that happens right now is there to support your awakening, it’s there to help you grow and become who you are destined to be, and you can trust where the flow takes you, because it knows everything about you and where you’re going.
Your job is to trust the guidance you receive, trust your intuition and be true to yourself and It will show you the way to your most beautiful and fulfilling life.
Question to ask yourself:
“If all this that I’m going through right now and experiencing, if it was all happening for a higher purpose, what would that be?”
What would the higher purpose be?
The answer(s) will shed some more light into why you’re experiencing what you’re experiencing right now.
It will help you shift your perception about it (you will be able to see it from a higher perspective), and it will empower you to move forwards despite of any challenges you’re experiencing right now.
Lastly, here’s an exercise you can do on releasing your fears around money and any other fears you might have:
There’s a second part of this article coming soon, it will be published shortly, so stay tuned.
Until then, do the things I have suggested so that you can come back to Truth, to a place of alignment, clarity, and inner peace.
Part two (“Free yourself from any situation with these prayers – How to be Happy and Free”) has now been published, and you can read it HERE .
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