true healing and drug addiction recovery story

My Drug Addiction Recovery and Healing Journey

17-18 years ago on January 25, my life changed completely.

It was the day I finally got into rehab and was able to turn my life around and start building the life I have today. I always remember this day as one of the most important days in my life.

Every year around this time I think back on that period in my life and I feel so grateful to be alive and blessed for having the life I have today.

I was 29 years old at the time and a living dead, I only existed, and I could feel an increasing awareness of the fact that if I didn’t get help, I would die.

It was a very dark time in my life and I had tried to get into rehab for at least a couple of years but the waiting list to get into one in Norway is long and many people die while waiting.

I knew it was just a matter of time before I would try heroin even though I had promised myself to never touch it.

And I also knew that the moment I did, that it would very quickly spiral even more rapidly downwards for me.

When I began using drugs I promised myself two things;

That I would never use a needle, and that I would never touch heroin, and I had already broken one of them so the next promise was not far away from being broken too.

I was also in more or less constant pain because my teeth were decaying from the decade long amphetamine use, but the pain was not only in my mouth, I was also deeply depressed and had severe anxiety.

In addition to that I was also psychotic and people around me were scared of me because of my temper, and I literally felt as if I was dying, and in a way I was.

My friends kept pushing heroin on me, saying that all my pain would go away in just one little sniff, and I knew it would, and that’s why I was afraid to touch it.

I knew that once I did that, it would be the beginning of the end for me. I don’t know how many people and friends I lost to heroin use or things related to it so I saw what it could do very closely.

I knew I was dying already, I wasn’t living, and heroin would be the thing that would push me off the cliff and then there would be no coming back for me, so I kept the last my promise to myself – for the time being.

Then in the end of the summer/early fall of 2001 I think it was, I was at a party and I was completely out of it and had a nervous breakdown bigger than any breakdown I had ever had up until that point.

I remember I was in the woods, on my knees, crying out to God for help,

and in that moment I saw a hand coming down from above me and towards me to take my hand.

It was like the hand of God you can see on some of the pictures where you see a big hand coming down from the heavens to help someone.

This happened to me, and it was one of the most profound experiences I’ve had in my entire life.

I have always felt as if something or someone is watching over me and that my life had some kind of purpose, even if I at that time didn’t know what it was.

I knew I had to live to fulfill it, it was what kept me trying to get help and which gave me the strength I needed to get well.

A lot of things happened that evening in the woods after my breakdown (too long to share in this post) and the following days afterwards I was just laying in bed and crying and crying, and crying.

But something had happened out there in the woods, the prayer I cried out was the beginning of my transformational journey to healing, awakening and coming into wholeness.

Shortly after that episode I found a rehab center (by synchronistic events) and when I applied for it and for the funding of it, I got it and from then on my life changed dramatically.

I spent the next two and a half years in rehab and was able to heal and get my life back again.

Here’s a post I wrote many years ago (on my ten-year anniversary) where I shared a little bit of my past: (Reading it now I can see my English has improved a lot since then! 😊)

Please remember this always:

Whatever you might be going through in your life, and maybe you’re even reading this because you’re having similar problems and challenges that I had;

Know that there is a Higher Intelligence that is available to you if you call out to it and ask it to help you.

I can tell you this because I know without a doubt that It is the main reason to why I’m still here today and that lead me to live my purpose and share my story with you.

Believe in it, believe in yourself, and believe that you can have an amazing life – because you absolutely can!

Something happened within me that I cannot explain

During and after our session, something happened within me that I cannot explain nor would it even make sense to anyone. There was a part of me that felt my being been taken over by a real peacefulness that I’ve never encountered before. Sounds odd but it’s the truth.

– A.

The whole session felt as if it was operating on another level

If you can trust one thing in your life right now, trust Maria. You can trust her with your heart and soul. It’s hard to explain, the whole session felt as if it was operating on another level. I’ve never had that kind of experience before. It just felt so much bigger than I anticipated. I can tell you with absolute honesty and conviction that having a session with Maria is life-changing!

– Lisa, USA

Now I know what is creating my reality

I’m overflowing with gratitude and joy! Life has changed dramatically for me after our time together. I have truly realized on a fundamental level what is creating my reality and it has given me confidence for the first time in my life to finally be ME, I feel liberated to be my authentic self!

— J. Carlson

This journey with you has been amazing

Words cannot fully express the profound impact of my session with you – it has been nothing short of magical. You helped me remove the blockages that held me back, helped me recognize my true worth, and providing so much insight that has been truly life-changing!

— Sarah K.

You have really made a difference in how my mind works

I don’t know if I make sense, but all I can say is that I feel blissful. And I can’t thank you enough for that. I don’t know exactly how you managed this, but you have really made a difference in how my mind works.

– Silvia, Marbella, Spain

The feeling of peace and freedom is priceless

This feeling of peace and freedom is priceless. Maria is beyond amazing. Had I not experienced it myself, I would probably not believe it. I recommend anyone who is trying hard to be truly free and really start walking down the path of self fulfillment and happiness to book a session with her.

Beyond grateful for the transformational journey we shared

Maria, I am beyond grateful for the transformational journey we shared. it was nothing less than a miracle that has allowed me come into who I really am. I wake up every morning with a big smile on my face, feeling immense gratitude for just being alive, I can’t explain it, I´m just enjoying this fully. Your guidance has so profoundly changed my life, and I cannot thank you enough.

— R. Los Angeles, USA

Could not more highly recommend

Maria is the real deal. You will sense it the moment you lay eyes on her. She offered much, much more than I’ve derived from other teachers; highly specific and personal recommendations. It is as though I got a crash graduate course from spirit. Could not more highly recommend!

Catherine Rondeau, Westport, Connecticut, USA

I’ve never had a conversation like that before

I just wanted to say thank you so much again for our session yesterday, I’ve never had a conversation like that before and it was truly amazing. I could feel weight lifted as we were talking and for the first time my mind did not try to make sense of things, it was all truly felt in the heart space.

Val, Melbourne, Australia

I have never felt more aligned to my true self

Maria’s awareness of energies and the conditions of the mind are truly impressive. She knows exactly what’s going on. She is so attuned to other peoples’ energy that she just knows where you’re at. After working with her I have never felt more alive and aligned to my true self.

Andrew B, San Diego, CA, USA

You are truly a gift to us all!

I can’t even begin to express how much I have gained internally after my session with you. You have been an instrument of peace in my life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

– Owen, USA

I had a complete turnaround to my situation

I had a complete turnaround to my situation so many thanks for helping me transform something I had lost hope about. It’s a miracle and the outcome could not have turned out better! If you want to see a real shift not just psychological but spiritual shift, then Maria is the lady to see. I am so glad I found you!

– Sophie P

Maria is leading people to a new way of being

Maria is changing the world by her presence. She’s leading people to a new way of being. She’s able to see where you are at in your journey and can show you the way forward. I feel so incredibly grateful that she has been a companion during this time of change. If you feel drawn to connect with Maria I encourage you to move forward with confidence.

– Carolyn W. Asheville, NC, USA


  1. Sara

    Hello beautiful soul! 💛

    I want to let you know that your writings is helping me so much in my own awakening process. As you already know this path is very lonely at times but knowing that others like yourself have walked it and something magical came out of it gives me so much strenght and faith. Your story is very strong and inspiring.

    Thank you for being you 🙏

    Sending you lots of love and light from a sunny spring day in Stockholm

  2. Tusen tack Sara, for ditt fina meddelande 😊 I appreciate it.

    I’m glad to hear my writings has been helpful to you. I’m born in Stockholm by the way! Spring and summer in Sweden is so beautiful, hope you enjoy ☀️

  3. Sara

    Jag är också från Sthlm ☺️

    Håller med att Sverige är fantastiskt på våren/sommaren 🌸

    Bor du i Spanien?

  4. Hej igen Sara!

    Ja, jag bor i Malaga omradet i Andalucien 😊 Ett av de basta choices I’ve made in my life, stortrivs har verkligen!

    Somrarna ar super varma da, sa det kan bli lite mycket ibland haha! Da tanker jag pa de fina svenska (och norska) somrarna – Jag har bott i Norge oxa i narmare 20 ar innan jag flyttade hit.

    Har du vart har nangang? Eller nan annanstans i Spanien?

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